Highwater at Catfish Bend

These are scans of drawings that were done shortly after I was out of high school in 2005. I also want to make a quick note that I still dress like this, wear my hair like this, and still have that Siouxise & the Banshees t-shirt. I no longer have those glasses, though. What's more, I didn't need them to begin with. I had blurred vision from lack of sleep (but a certain Succubus Decorator crab would somehow get the exact same ones).  At the very least, I am nothing if not consistent. Anyway, moving on. It's weird to look back on these and knowing that at the time, I knew I was a good artist, but little whispers of not being good enough from my peers--a lot of whom were copying my drawings and then having their friends leave comments about how "bad" my very similar pieces were (using my whole name, of course). And I know that seems insignificant now , but at the time, it left a very last impression on me. I was still  a child  when I drew that Alice. The amo

  Der Hölle Rache hiding behind a dumpster.

I have two albums coming out at some point this year. I am in the process of finishing up my opera record. I know I keep saying that, but I promise you, it's true! I am not hurrying up to finish. Opera is about discipline and perfection. It's one of the reasons why I am so, so glad that I chose to re-record the entire record from scratch (I mean, for that and many other reasons, hahaha). Der Hölle Rache is chugging along, and then it's the Doll Song aria. I love pop music, and I always want to make pop music. I am just not going to make pop music my main focus anymore. I am very excited about this next batch of songs. I am just going to take my time on them. I can't wait to show you what I do have.

There is something that has been bothering me, about some of the things that I have previously said, both here , here , and on my other blog, and I want to clarify my meaning, because we live in a world that is committed to purposeful misinterpretation and misrepresentation. There are people who purposely seek to misunderstand you. I know that over-explaining yourself is a trauma response, but I also know that the internet wants you to grovel over things that they have postulated that they want to strong-arm into reality--or have just simply invented. I did not want people to think I was saying "look what you made me do"--the way that narcissists and other abusers do. I did want to make it known, and to clarify, that what I did do was in direct response to the years of malicious harassment, bullying, name calling, physical violence, s3xual misconduct that all went unchecked for years. I was tormented, extensively, by people who would turn around and pretend they did not

In the United States, we have an up-coming three day weekend! I am planning on getting some much needed REST, as well as seeing some friends I have not seen in too long! My friend Lauren and I are going to do an art drop in San Francisco's historic Japantown . I did several sketch cards of 90's and early 2000's anime characters drawn in just simple ballpoint pen and splashed with a little watercolour. I really, really enjoyed doing an art drop at Disneyland last year for my birthday , and have been wanting to do another one ever since. This one is to encourage people to go to Japantown and support the Japanese American businesses. I know that Japanese culture is more than anime . But I also know that Japantown in SF is one of the last remaining three in the US and the pandemic took a toll on the shops there. It's a way to be supportive without being appropriative.  If I am being perfectly honest, I stopped watching anime in the early 2000's, so I have literally no