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Wouldn't even care, but now you're here to see It comes as no surprise Just leave the light on

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 It's nice to see friends again. Even though the ones that I see are so very limited and I keep my circle so small to reduce my exposure to Covid which still rages, it's nice to see friends again. This photo is from two weeks ago. I never made the blog post about it, but it was a fun day. My friend Charlie and I went to the Walt Disney Museum (and accidently crashed the Korean Mid-Autumn Moon festival) and then went to Japan town for lunch and then snacks. I should have blogged about it closer to after it happened, and now I feel as though the window to relive that day has passed, but at the very least have a photo of my food! :) On Saturday, Charlie and I will be going to a house warming for our friend Chris! I have my flu shot and booster tomorrow afternoon, and then am hoping to sleep it off so I can do my voice lessons on Saturday morning and then go to the party later in the evening. I know that I did not complete everything on my Summer list , but I still feel like I go

Gonna waste some time with you And let this world go Keep my heart idle 🌘🎑🥮🍃🍂🍁

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 Today is the official first day of Autumn. ðŸ I sadly missed the Mid-Autumn Moon celebrations this year (although Charlie and I semi-crashed the Korean one at the Presidio a couple of weeks ago). I haven't had a single mooncake this year! What is wrong with me?! We don't get our proper "summer" weather until late September/ Early October anyway! We did get some surprise! rain earlier this week, which was so nice. Rain is nice. Commuting in it is not. I like being at home and looking at it, or going to a museum or something to escape it, but having to commute in it is the pits. I know the aesthetic Dark Academia has a lot of... problems (but I still attest that I invented Dark Academia , and will not hear otherwise), but there is something to be said about how studious I feel this time of year. Obviously, I am not into any of the weird Colonialcore nonsense, but I do miss Fall sessions of college. They always seemed much shorter and marked by holidays, unlike

And I don't care if it hurts sometimes

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 I feel as though I have maladaptive daydreamed my entire life away.

Rising from the ash again Time after time

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I missed the deadlines for this season (and I would have never been ready for this season anyway), but I have started sketching the next one: I know I have mentioned this before, but I am an opera singer. I am a light lyric coloratura soprano who can go up to an A#/Bb6.  I am currently wrapping up my opera album, which I will use as an audition material. I am now three arias away from finishing my album. I am using the album in place of a YAP programme. It costs money to audition. Many, many opera companies still charge for application and audition fees, so that has been one of the things that has held me back a lot. It's a considerable amount of money, people! It can be upwards to 10k PER audition season! My list above breaks down how I would go out mapping out a season--starting with the list of opera houses, the most local ones first and foremost, roles I want to specialize in my repertoire, and the arias that I wish to focus on in my auditions. You have to have an aria from on

you yell out loud in the middle of my mouth four winds drown the hours, you’ll never come out

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 I had jury duty the last few days. It was traumatic, but I was dismissed yesterday morning. Here are some photos from the last couple of days: This was so cute and reminded me of HELLO, DOLLY, but it was better than HELLO, DOLLY, because it was just the aesthetics and no singing of those awful songs. Thassa no from me, dawg. Bathroom selfie outfit check. Well, I checked at the scheduled time, and it's off to the courthouse I go. We love a good theme. View from the train platform. Always happy to see that sight. Some photos from after I was dismissed the next day: This is so good, holy shit. EW. This was the nicest part of the library, which was largely dull. I got bored and walked to another library. Another library, another weird large floor chess set. I walked about 5 miles yesterday. I am very rarely in that part of the world anymore (for many reasons), but it was nice to just walk around and have a stress free, no time limit wander. I cannot remember the la

Wild summer gone Floating over water at the break of dawn Breathing in the warmth

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 First and foremost: my cat went mini-viral on YouTube (by my standards lol) When asked about it, Beatrice commanded that I paint her like one of my French [cats]. I decided that Saturday was a good day to be Indigenous. The end of summer for most people is the beginning of summer for us. We get all of the weather classically associated with summer during September and October. It's supposed to be mild all week with a burst of some 70*s over the three day weekend. I am debating as to whether or not I want to do anything this coming weekend. I only went outside once or twice this last weekend, and I know I need that vitamin D. Once I am outside doing something, I am mostly fine, but getting out of the house and doing stuff gives me so much anxiety. Looking over my summer bucket list , I think I did pretty good!  First, starting out with things I did not do: -go to the California Academy of Sciences -go to the beach -go to Monterey (my mom and sister did go, but they went without

Torschlusspanik

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 I turned 35 on August 7th, and I am not okay about it. Trauma has cost me my entire life. I never had a childhood, and now that time is away from me. Poverty took away my childhood and  most of my 20's.  Only rich kids get to do art. Art they probably stole from you. I...I am not okay.