And I've got to hide some place and find myself again

 I spent a very long time trying to be someone I wasn't to appeal to people who didn't want me.

The rare exception was the album shoot for my first LP:

This was authentically me (I still have that cardigan, btw)

I tried too hard.

 

 It wasn't until about 2019 when I started to slowly get myself back.

I started to phase out wearing pants.

 

I started to phase in more vintage fashion and feminine cuts.

 

I started rebuying clothes like these Minnie Mouse shoes I had gotten rid of.

I started making some of my own clothes.

I gave up wearing pants almost entirely. I didn't care what was in style or not, I was gonna wear what I loved that looked good on my body and made me comfortable.

By 2024, I had absolutely nailed my style and never wanted to go back to anything other than this ever again.

I fully embraced how dorky I was. 

    

Nothin' ever other than exactly what I am.