hello, world.

There are so many things happening right now that I want to talk about, but can't. I neither want to jinx them, nor make them public. Some things exist just for me, and that's okay.

Some truly magical things happened in January. It was also awful, and felt like two months instead of one. Some of the things that happened, I question if they really happened and it that was really real. They were things that made my cold heart maybe believe in a little magic again. Trying to stay grounded, trying to stay rational and not get too sad or upset if it's not like a perfect fairytale--whilst still recognizing that what I did experience was, in fact, magic. I've long believed that nice things just don't happen to me; that's not me wallowing like some people, it was just a fact of reality that I've accepted as part of my life. That ["those things"] (whatever, take your pick, insert here) were for other people, and not me. 

I've also decided to keep a lot of what is happening and has happened to myself, because I find that I have more than one secret (and not so secret) hater in my circle. Somethings are also just for me.

My horoscope this month says this is the month I've been waiting for, and that it's going to be magic.

I sure hope so.

Please let it be everything my horoscopes have promised.