So cut the headlights, summer's a knife

If you were to ask me what my heart craved or the weather I enjoyed the most, it's embodied by this photo. (It had also been almost 100* the day before, so the fairly dramatic temperature dip was very welcomed.)

It's been back to what they refer to as "June Gloom," but there's nothing gloomy about it to me.  I love the fog. The only thing I am sad about is that June marks when the days start getting shorter again and it is bad for my brain. It never used to be bad for my brain, but now it's AWFUL.

I am working on new original music. I can't stop working on it because I need the money! :D I also don't want to lose that part of myself or that skillset. It's just so sad that everything I release gets ripped off, and it makes releasing anything miserable, but I am trying to do my best to ignore it. Especially since the song I am wrapping up soon is a summer JAM.

The pollen has been OFF THE CHARTS lately, and I was suffering from dry mouth so bad all weekend, I couldn't sing anything, and I mean anything. Not being able to sing is very, very scary for me because it's literally my job and my entire life, so not being able to access the most important part of yourself is terrifying. I am trying not to talk as much as possible on top of consuming as much liquid as I can. 

I've managed to do a few things on my summer list! I had a picnic with a friend yesterday that turned into a trip to the animal shelter and one step closer to them owning a dog! :D I am having another picnic with a friend today and we are going to eat sandwiches and whale watch after work.

I have a single coming out on Friday! :D It's just a reissue of an aria I previously released, but it's still something, you know? I am trying.

I keep forgetting that I am going back to Disneyland in a little over a month. Because everything is so stressful, it feels like a chore, and I am trying to not let it be a chore. Everything feels like a danger, everything feels like a chore. I hope I can pull it together in time.

Right now I will just enjoy the moments as they come. 

I hope I see lots of whales tonight! :D