It made everything look beautiful And I wanted it to stay like this So bad
There some article circulating shaming Disney Adults again for some wedding or whatnot, which I don't quite understand why people would be upset because they didn't pay for it, and I think weddings are stupid anyway.
Then this article came to my attention, echoing many, many of the points that I had said over the last few weeks: Disney and the Disney parks gave poor, non-yt children (especially those from fractured backgrounds) some semblance of normalcy. It's not simply a matter of "not growing up," or "refusing to grow up," Disney epitomized the American dream that had been promised to us. It represented, as the author so eloquently says, "boundless optimism." It represents safety, stability--that no matter what bad things happened in our lives, there was a place where we could go and just be kids like every other kid and we could have somewhere that was clean and safe that our whole family could hang out at. Like one of the people interviewed in this article, we couldn't afford very much, if anything at all growing up, but we had the Disney VHS tapes we watched over and over.
Going to Disneyland was escaping the heaviness of the break-ins, the trauma of being stalked and bullied in school, the fact that I grew up in a broken home and had no friends. Disneyland and Disney films were the most beautiful, breath-taking immersive pieces of art I had ever seen. I designed my own attractions. Endless imagination, endless possibilities. Disneyland was always going to be there, my home base. I went every year with my family for years. It remains one of the very few happy memories of my early life that I have.
Every happy photo of my childhood was taken in Disneyland.
I went to Disneyland in 2005 for my high school graduation, for the first time in since the Country Bears closed in 2001. We went with my sister and her then friend. I listened to the Jesus Christ Superstar 1996 London Cast recording the whole way down. It would be the last time I saw The Beating Heart Bride.She was beautiful and tragic and devastating and I loved her. Deeply. I miss her to much. Her annoying replacement was no replacement. I still think about her all of the time. Haunted Mansion was never the same again.
I don't want to see where it was.
They won't miss me. They have millions of people who will take my place.